I feel like crying. My eyes are watery.. rubbed them to make sure my tears weren't blurring my vision and logic.
Liverpool 2-1 Arsenal
believe in miracles now. So many months..
years of defiance n bearing the taunts for this very day..
nvr been touched like this..
You'll. Never. Walk. Alone
Monday, November 29, 2004
Friday, November 05, 2004
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow...
Sigh. I don't know what to make out of this lit exam. I mean, it's the only tuition sides BM i went to, the amount of work I put in for it is more than addm n BC added up together.. and still I freakin screwed it. I think after today, as Perng put it, SPM rlly started for me.
The anxiety n pressure n sadness that should alwis accompanied the difficult truth called SPM has finally settled in. The one subject I wanted so bad an A1 in is beyond my grasp now. I screwed it. I can't stop thinkin' that. I decided to sleep away my.. erm.. frustration but it's not workin'. I shud just get over it n move on coz there's still papers waitin for me to sit.. books waitin' for me to open.. but.. I can't study. Thank God Cow took my Shane book or I'll just be wastin' all my time readin' it up. I mean.. since when Marian helped Joe?! Hero-worshipped? Maybe it's just me.. dumb.. I mean.. the whole books bout Bob worshipping Shane but I'm stuck for answers. Thank God it's just worth 4 bloody marks.
N worse.. my PR. I thought it was one of my best PR by far.. that's my only source of comfort when I came home.. but upon careful reading I saw
"explain how this book make you become a better person" or sth the likes of that. There and then, I know my PR's a goner. Simple instructions also dunno how to follow.. Damn Kell you rlly had to put this upon urself... I launched into a loooonnggg explanation of Shane's virtues, never really elaborated on his impact on me. Poems.. HA! WHat nature n children?!! *bangs head up the wall* The two poems I rlly studied for didn't come out. ANd all my quotes *sob* One word: wasted.
So after 9 months of Xavier's institution, RM1440, constantly surfing the net to find materials, all the hours wasted on reading and rereading the texts, it's up to the examiner n luck now to save my sorry ass. I hope that by seeing the amount of words written, i mean, yes it's bout quality not quantity but a gal can still hope rite? That by seeing the amount of pages ( 10 of em, full, no lines out in 2 n half hours) they would give me points for my pathetic effort. If not, then it's beyond reasonable doubt that I have to settle for a B. Maybe B also cannot.
Spend all your time waiting for a second chance... Haihz..
Nth a meal at Pizza Hut's can't fix though. =) All the best people!
The anxiety n pressure n sadness that should alwis accompanied the difficult truth called SPM has finally settled in. The one subject I wanted so bad an A1 in is beyond my grasp now. I screwed it. I can't stop thinkin' that. I decided to sleep away my.. erm.. frustration but it's not workin'. I shud just get over it n move on coz there's still papers waitin for me to sit.. books waitin' for me to open.. but.. I can't study. Thank God Cow took my Shane book or I'll just be wastin' all my time readin' it up. I mean.. since when Marian helped Joe?! Hero-worshipped? Maybe it's just me.. dumb.. I mean.. the whole books bout Bob worshipping Shane but I'm stuck for answers. Thank God it's just worth 4 bloody marks.
N worse.. my PR. I thought it was one of my best PR by far.. that's my only source of comfort when I came home.. but upon careful reading I saw
"explain how this book make you become a better person" or sth the likes of that. There and then, I know my PR's a goner. Simple instructions also dunno how to follow.. Damn Kell you rlly had to put this upon urself... I launched into a loooonnggg explanation of Shane's virtues, never really elaborated on his impact on me. Poems.. HA! WHat nature n children?!! *bangs head up the wall* The two poems I rlly studied for didn't come out. ANd all my quotes *sob* One word: wasted.
So after 9 months of Xavier's institution, RM1440, constantly surfing the net to find materials, all the hours wasted on reading and rereading the texts, it's up to the examiner n luck now to save my sorry ass. I hope that by seeing the amount of words written, i mean, yes it's bout quality not quantity but a gal can still hope rite? That by seeing the amount of pages ( 10 of em, full, no lines out in 2 n half hours) they would give me points for my pathetic effort. If not, then it's beyond reasonable doubt that I have to settle for a B. Maybe B also cannot.
Spend all your time waiting for a second chance... Haihz..
Nth a meal at Pizza Hut's can't fix though. =) All the best people!
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